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Thursday, March 03, 2005

Change of Address

For the past few weeks I've been double-posting to this site and a LiveJournal account I created. The advantage, for me, of LiveJournal is that several people I know have blogs over there, and by having an account I can read their "filtered" content. I don't see any real advantage to maintaining both LiveJournal and Blogger, so I'm going to start posting exclusively on LiveJournal. They have the same type of commenting system as Blogger where you can either use an already-created account or post anonymously, so I don't think that it will make commenting too terribly inconvenient.

Here's the new address:
http://www.livejournal.com/users/matimus/

If you access this site by going to http://blog.matimus.com, I'm going to start pointing that URL to LiveJournal site instead of Blogger.

Craven Images

I cancelled my Netflix subscription this past week. For some reason the turnaround time here is horrible - it can take up to a week to get a movie after I send one in. When I was subscribed in Sacramento it only took two days. It just made the whole thing impractical. One of my complaints about Netflix was that I couldn't be spontaneous about what I wanted to watch. I had a hard enough time predicting what kind of movie I'd be in the mood for two days in advance - it was almost impossible to plan a week in advance. Just my luck I'd be in the mood for a comedy and I'd be stuck with a choice between Schindler's List and House of Sand and Fog. So I sacrificed the near-infinite selection and went back to the local video store, which still has a pretty good selection and good prices.

On Friday I went to see Wes Craven's latest film Cursed. It was passable as a monster movie matinee, heavy on the camp and humor and devoid of any real horror. Last night, I rented Last House on the Left, Craven's first film. Not really knowing anything about it, I assumed it was going to be a typical slasher-in-the-woods film, but it ended up being much more realistic, horrifying and nightmarish in a manner typical of the gritty, early-70's 16mm horror films. It may have been my mood, or the fact that I'm getting older, but I just didn't have the stomach for the movie's brutual cruelty. My overwhelming feeling when the movie ended was, "I did not need to see that." It was an interesting contrast, though, to the highly-polished, star-driven "Cursed". But I don't think I'll be seeing either of them again.

Oh, and I promise not to make a habit of the self-indulgent whining of my last entry, but I have to get that out of my system every now and then.

Wednesday, March 02, 2005

Grumble

The last couple days have been pretty crappy. Yesterday I found out that I didn't get yet another job I had interviewed for and am perfectly qualified to do. I wish I could figure out exactly what's preventing me from closing the deal. Is it that (1) I have some severe personality defect I'm not aware of? (2) I'm not as smart as I think I am? (3) I'm just not communicating my knowledge effectively? (4) There are a glut of qualified candidates, and I just haven't had the edge yet?

I've spent four months job-hunting so far with nothing to show but a one-week stint participating in a System Administration study in January. It's frustrating more than anything. Being unemployed this long wasn't something we'd planned on, but something we'd planned for, just on the off chance we'd have to spend a couple months job-hunting. I guess it wasn't such an off chance after all.

Feeling a bit home-bound, I decided to go out exploring today. I pointed the Scion south and headed down the winding highways through the countryside. I ended up finding a particularly pleasant picnic site in Harris Lake County Park, about 25 miles from our house. The area had lots of wildlife, even in the dead of winter. I must have seen 20 deer today, various ducks, and I even spotted a bluebird. Once the weather gets warmer, Jen and I will definitely have to go back and check out the hiking and biking trails. Today the temps were in the 40's and although the sunshine provided some amount of warmth, the icy wind was quite brisk. One good by-product of the weather, though, was the fact that nobody was around.

But then the desolation started seeming a little bit creepy, since this sits right next to the lake. Visions of a zombie apocalypse danced in my head.

So I'm hoping March will be a better month than February, and by the time April comes I'll have a job that I'm already sick of. It's not panic time yet, but it's to the point where doubt is creeping into the back of my head and a very tiny part of me wonders if we made a bad decision by moving here. And a bad decision I could deal with; what I couldn't deal with is having a bunch of people tell me, "I knew it was a mistake the whole time" and acting all superior and then I'd get all pissy at them and I'd probably have to punch them in the cock.

Monday, February 28, 2005

Vita procedit

I'm up to Chapter 3 of Wheelock's Latin, which is entitled "Second Declension: Masculine Nouns and Adjectives; Apposition; Word Order". Sounds like a hoot, no?

One of the cool things about Latin is that the order of the words in the sentence doesn't really matter; the endings of the nouns and verbs tell you everything you need to know. The bad thing is that you have to memorize all of those verb and noun endings. It's going to be hard for me without having occasion to use the language on a regular basis, but I'm doing all of the exercises and making handy little notecards to try to help my memory.

One of the enlightening aspects of learning a new language is discovering the idiosyncrasies of English. I'm gaining more of an appreciation for the Southern term "y'all", because it fills a distinct void in our language. I've even found myself, while doing exercises, writing "y'all" instead of "you (plural)" or "you all." I suppose I could use the Northern "Youse", but you know what they say, "when in Rome..."

Wednesday, February 23, 2005

Food of the Gods

This afternoon I took myself to a pizza buffet for lunch. For a couple of reasons, this was something of a treat for me. In an effort to save money I've been trying to severely limit the number of meals I eat out in restaurants. Mostly I just make myself a sandwich or something and eat lunch at home. Today was different, but the buffet was only $3.99, so I figured I wasn't breaking the bank. But mostly it was a treat because I rarely eat pizza anymore. I first cut it out of my diet about four years ago when I began a serious effort to lose weight and live a more healthy lifestyle. Of all the foods and drinks I've given up since then, it's pizza I miss the most. The reason is that pizza is the most perfect food ever invented.

Naturally, there is food that is tastier and obviously there are more sophisticated dishes. But no other food on the planet combines yummines and versatility more effectively than pizza. You can eat it any time of the day. I had it for lunch, but could have easily eaten it for dinner, and if I'd brought it home and had leftovers, I could have put them in the refrigerator overnight and eaten the rest for breakfast. Pizza is one of the few foods that can be enjoyed for at least three meals in a row, and if you've never eaten pizza for three meals in a row at some point in your life, there is something very wrong with you.

Pizza works in almost any occassion. You can eat it when you're alone, but it's perfect for large groups of people. It's the perfect dish for consolation or celebration. For one person or fifty, pizza fits the bill. And what if everyone doesn't agree on how a "perfect pizza" should be made? No problem! Get a pepperoni pizza for the carnivores, a veggie pizza for the herbivores, and get one with pesto sauce for the hoity-toity crowd. Pile it with whatever vegetable, meat or fungus suits your fancy - mushrooms, anchovies, pineapple. Even artichokes, for God's sake!

If you don't have enough dishes, pizza is the perfect way to go. You can use a paper plate, a napkin, or the palm of your hand to catch the crums. Don't worry about napkins either, they usually come with the pizza. And that's another advantage: you don't have to go to pizza; it will come to you. It can be eaten in a restaurant, on the go, or it can be delivered right to your house. You can have it in an office meeting, watching movies at home, a late night at work, or when you're decorating the gym for the homecoming dance.

Pizza is the only food you can eat with anyone, anywhere at any time. And even when it's not great, it will probably still taste pretty good.

Tuesday, February 22, 2005

Pushin' up Daffodils

We've had some mild weather over the past several days, and a couple of flowers have popped up in our otherwise-barren front yard. We haven't planned to do much gardening here since we hope to be in our own house sometime in the summer anyway, but it's a pleasant surprise to see a little color when I look out my front door.

It also makes me wonder what else may have been buried out there.


Monday, February 21, 2005

"Too weird to live, and too rare to die...."

Not a good news story to start out the week.

This was the first weekend in a while that actually felt like a weekend. I didn't sleep in too late - but I could have. My body's on a better sleep cycle now that I've been forcing myself to get up by 8:00am every morning; I'm able to actually get to sleep before midnight these days. It will make for a much easier transition once I start the regular workday schedule again. But for two days I didn't force myself into the routine to which I've become accustomed, so Saturday and Sunday seemed like they actually meant something. Plus Jen was home, so there was actually someone to talk to besides Sunny Dawg. But there wasn't much more exciting going on than running errands: to the market for groceries, to the library for books, to the pet store for dog food. I found a store that sells all sorts of outdoor bird accessories - feeders, houses, bird baths, etc.

Friday night we watched Touch of Evil. I'd forgotten how goddamned cool that movie is. Say what you want about Citizen Kane being Orson Welles' masterpiece - and you're probably right - but I'd rather watch Touch of Evil any day. The way he uses the camera to tell the story is perfect in this film - off-kilter angles, high or low perspectives, interplay of light and shadow. Best of all was the wide-angle lens that simultaneously distorts and keeps everything in perfect focus. It's the all-seeing eye, in a movie primarily about deception. Beautiful.

Saturday night was, shall we say, more low-brow. We watched Part VII of the Friday the 13th series. Bad, predictable, unimaginative - pick any adjective used to describe a movie you hate, and it probably applies here. I know, I know, I should give it up now - why torture myself, right? I don't have an answer, but I know this: only three more of them to go.

Sunday I spent reading. So much, in fact, that I began and finished a book in the same day, something rare for me. It was The Rule of Four by Ian Caldwell and Dustin Thomason, and was about a group of friends who are seniors at Princeton working on their senior theses and trying to figure out what to do with the rest of their lives. The book gets lumped in with Dan Brown type fiction, because the catalyst for action is the study of a real book called the Hypnerotomachia Poliphili, written in the late 1400's by an anonymous author. In the novel, the study of this book reveals hidden riddles and codes that those who are studying it try to solve. But that's not what the book is about. It's about friendship, dealing with loss, obsession. That's not to say there isn't any sleuthing or intrigue involved, but that's not the story's primary focus.

I also finished reading When Jesus Became God, an account of the events of the 4th Century BC in which Christianity won official status via Constantine, but competing theological doctrines divided the Christian community. The author hurls lots of dates and names at the reader, but with enough of a storyteller's flair that it becomes an interesting drama. It covers the Council of Nicea & the development of the Nicene Creed, many other church councils and creeds, and the battle over the definition of the relationship between Jesus and God. Ultimately the position of the Arians, who claimed that Jesus was the Son of God, but not God Himself, was declared heretical and the idea of the Holy Trinity emerged. It was interesting to see both sides of the debate engage in the same type of character assassination and political wrangling that is familiar these days as well. Also interesting is to try to understand how and why some of the early interpretations of Christianity became heretical, and others became Church dogma.

I imagine it's still too early in the year to wish for this cold and rainy weather to go away. For the shortest month of the year, February sure does drag on. Hopefully today I'll hear back about 2nd interviews for the jobs leads that developed last week.

Saturday, February 19, 2005

Another List

Here's another blog trend that you're probably sick of, but I've just heard of, so I'm giving it a shot. This one was difficult for me, having not lived a very interesting or unique life.

10 Things I've Done That You (Probably) Haven't

1. Sang at Carnegie Hall
2. Made more than five fielding errors in one inning of a softball game
3. Saw Fargo in the theater on opening day
4. Trimmed the nails of a pitbull
5. Saw They Might Be Giants for free on three different occassions
6. Had a childhood butterfly phobia
7. Conceived, cooked, and ate a dish called "Cheez-It Tuna Casserole"
8. Got married on October 6, 2001
9. Lost my wedding ring while swimming in the Eel River
10. Voted for a presidential candidate who was a member of the Natural Law party